Quote by RintashaNice reply to the issue of engagement....... so your 19, hehehe, really amusing............

what's so amusing?

No, I don't^^ Thx for writing in the guest book anyway^^

Quote by RintashaMy parents are okay, but if you really are in a situation in what you say you are, that is a problem. I have a friend with a mother who hates her, or at least that is the opinion that I was led to believe. Still, her mother only raises her because her father has to support them both as long as she lives with her mother. By the way, her parents are divorced. Anyway, your school should have some psychologist, so go talk with them, (I am assuming that you are in highschool), it might help.

yea...im in high school.......well things now r better...i think...well aniwaise thankx for participating in my thread^^

hey, thanks for replying to my thread 'violent video games and movies VS fairytales'
cya around

Quote by RintashaJealousy is great isn't it.... and as everyone said here, having a girlfriend/boyfriend doesn't make one a guy or gal. Yes that was an idiotic insult and he should be hanged form being a dimwit. The guy just has relationship issues with people general. His comfort zone feels to be invaded; take for instance here in America. Everyone seems to be at a certains space away from each other; that's because of their comfort zone. In Egypt however, everyone is up in your face...... not comfortable at all. Apply that to this relationship, and one sees the problem. He feels uncomfortable because you're talking to "his girl" (I really do hate that term, girls are not objects) and afraid that you may steal her.

The guy has issues, it's gender discrimination to both males and females for him to say that you are gay. Tell him to go on a campaign all over the country and tell the millions of single men that they are gay cause they don't have a girlfriend. He'll get skewered in no time.

Wow, thanks for the nice comment, but you know?
I kinda feel sorry for the guy, his o called GIRLFRIEND just dump him,
hehe... sorry for him, and me, well, I got a girlfriend now, so I'm happy as a veggie^^.

Quote by RintashaYour getting married? Congrats! I hope that all ends well in your life which means........ you both don't end at all........

Thanks Yeah I hope for the best too We get along so well I don't think it'll ever end

[Ahahaha! D'ont sweat it! You've been forgiven a long time ago I dont really have the time to go on MT these days (busy working full time by night so i sleep during the day ..... and I should be sleeping now...^_^' )

Anyways, with my ex we talked a few times and she seems positive about the friendship thingy. And as far as I am concerned, i'll try very soon to develop a new relationship very soon with an friend of mine who i worked with in my old job before i worked night time. She's pretty cute and recently single .She looked sad when i left the other job because she considers me as a good friend. I've proposed to her that we should go out some night to talk since we never had really time to talk with each other and she agreed..... if she dosent work that is . If things go well, maybe and i said maybe, i'll ask her out but i'll get to know her better first. Since i live in montreal, i'll take a walk with her on Mont-Royal and after take a coffee somewhere and i'll bring her back home at the end of the evening. Plain, easy and simple.That way, i'll get to know her better and if she is my type or not.I just hope it works. She seems nice enough

Anyways, you're forgiven for the things you said

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there

I truly felt the need to answer you back

thnxs for the comment by the way. The reason on why i turned dark and cold is explanable.

At first before we started dating, the day before she confessed to me that she loved me, my other gf dumped me and in the same day, i had an argument with my father and i fought with him but he got the best of me and held me by the throat against the wall for 3 long minutes....

The relationship i had with my dad wasent the best to have, he were an alcoholic and i lived with him since i were 12 when my mom thrown me out of the house on valentine's day. Therefore, since my father never really like to work, he got in and out of jobs putting him and I in constant misery. He sworn to me for 6 long years: " It'll be over in two weeks". After a prolonged exposure to failing promises i began to be pessimistic and less trustfull even though i never had faith in my parents or anyone else anyways and since he was an alcoholic, i often had to take care of my own father when he was too f***img drunk to even walk.

So therefore, the day after the fight with my dad, I came at school with a bruised neck and my now ex gf named Stella asked me if I wanted to pass the evening at her home so that I could some distance from my dad and I accepted. We were in the same theater class so we got to knew each other throughout the year and she told me she had a crush on me. So a few days gone by and we were together....

The thing she never told me was that before meeting me, she got raped and violented by her ex bfs so when i tried to only give her a hug, she would quake and gasp in fear in the corner of her or my room. She often made me feel bad about myself not only because of her constant fear but also because she submitted herself sometimes by trying to please me so "I woudn't get mad at her" according to what she feared. I often woke myself up in the middle of the night just to check on her if she were ok only to find her either having a nightmare and moving like crazy in the bed or awaken and afraid that I would get mad at her because she though she waken me up. I often had to talk out with her by telling her i wasnt mad or anything only that she would closen up to me so I could her within my arms to reassure her a bit. I were totally consious (spelling) about her fears and I dont blame her for that... I'll explain why i talk about that later

From her side, she also tooked care of me. Since Stella used to sing, her sweet voice used to make me cry when i was sad about my relationship with my father. She often used to sing "I turn to you" By Christina Aguilera because i saw myself within the song and when she used to sing it she held me close to comfort me and wipe off my tears. I saw myself in the song becuase she were there to help me and love me and I coudnt found anyone in the first 17 years of my existence to help me not even a friend because i were a reject and not by my parents since they kept fighting along with each other before they seperated but that was when i were really young however... She were the only one that truly wanted to be there for me and love me without bad intentions. At first I wondered if i could really allow myself to get attached to her. I even told her the truth. I told her i wasent sure if i really were to get emotionally attached to her. She was aware and understood like I understood her problem of constant fear

The relationship progressed and she came to put her fears aside. What truly helped was that I saved her life twice, 1- Because she also got hit by a car while crossing the street 2- I saved from slipping on the floor and knock her head mortally on wood furniture. I got to find trust within myself to give her and everything were perfect, until a certain point

We began to have small fights and after it grew bigger. She even left me once before because since we had a fight and i prefered to let both ourselves cool down she left me and said that since i dint came after her she left me... I was crushed by that call, took some alcohol i had in store and got myself drunk at one of my friends house who told me to came.

The next day, I went to see her after her job with a white rose so that we could explain ourselves and it got settled by her apologies and mine.

But the fight grew darker and more often... I had the oppotunity once to dump her and leave her for an other girl who also loved me but i refused because i had faith it could work out. I even told Stella that a girl wanted me but i refused because i had faith it could work out with each other but she dint seem to notice the message i tryed to pass out that I would stand up till the end for us. She had to have to deal with the death of her biological father she saw twice in her life because she were in a mental hospital. I were still with her back then, Her biological father died february 13th and i cheered her up enough that i were able to make her laugh once.

Finally the break up came to happen soon after

She told her mother i were the best guy she ever met, that she truly felt loved and i were the one who she would really share love for the first time in a soft way..... but she later turned to her friends who were also mine and told them the complete opposite.
Since the break up i saw her a couple of times and she often bad mouthed me for no damn reason to me but to venge herself or hurt me for no obvious reason. She kept talking trash to my face and to everone i knew just to hurt me

she held me close before and now she wants to choke the air out of me. She were the only one to be there for me and then she abandoned me. I helped her through her life and i got nothing but despair and sorrow, that why i turned like what i am today

do you have any idea on how i can be what i were before all this started?

merged: 07-03-2006 ~ 05:27am
First off i would like to clarify some things,

1- I have been single until i got 17 years old.... i dint had a gf before that

2-The "weakness" you describe isnt about the strengh of myself in the situation.... I woudn't not even qualify that as weak. Being weak is to run away from the situation a.k.a. suicide. I dint even f*cking thought of it once. She wasent worth it. I saw her once since the breakup and she acted like she never loved me even once. I were angry and devastated so i got home, drank alone alot and cut myself inside my hands and drawn a star on my belly with the unsharpened dagger she gave me at valentine's day. When i sobered up, i realized it was f*cking sick what i just done. I lightned up since and told myself she aint worth a sh*t to me anymore no matter how i loved her before and how i still little do now. I kept no scars of this "drunken mutilation". It was the first time i even did this and believe me it's the last too

Being strong is to keep on with it and move along. Yes, the scars may heal over like right now but before that, the anger, the feeling of loss, the confusion, the sorrow and being consumed by madness isnt a sign of weakness. Giving up is

I though for myself about this at work today and thought of what i could bring up to her face if she ever confronts me and try to b*tch on me at college. I am ready to counter her now. It's not revenge as far as i am concerned just to show her i wont crumble under my emotions and finally stand up against her constant attacks. If she dosent cause me trouble at college i wont do some to her either but if she does i'll tell her flaws to her face too.

And no i wont slam you with harsh words, you're still young. you havent felt all this yet....... Consider me your mentor if it happens to you. Since that breakup of mine. I have the strange capacity to settle broken couples again ......

Quote by RintashaYou like helping people?.........

It's better to say I dislike the way life is, and if it's ever going to get better someone must change it. Look around your life, at how people mindlessly hurt others for no reason at all. The selfishness that breeds unrestrained. I believe in something better.

merged: 04-24-2006 ~ 09:39am
No worries friend. We grow by example. In that way we are all role models of a sort.

Hey there love in regards to your reply in my guest book I bet you thought I was closer to forty then thirty but that's okay I really don't care about what others think of me if you want to think of me as stupid and old well then go a head. I think it is very cool that you have honored your promise to not have sex until after you are married and also think it is very cool that you will wait until you are eighteen to have a girl friend that is very noble and wise of you there love. I on the other hand have already given up looking for love and find that really no one in this world can live up to my standards so I just stopped looking years ago. But how about this? When you turn eighteen I will place you under my strongest blessing and protection. When this happens all of your crippling bad luck will be redirected to me so you will have better luck in all aspects of your life even your love life you will find that special someone quicker but since you'll have to wait until you're eighteen and if you want to find a girl friend now and even have sex (you know do what you want) you'll have to do it on your own but when you turn eighteen then all of your bad luck will be mine and well go nuts. Not just anyone can be placed under my strongest protect and blessing who isn't within my family. What do you say?

merged: 04-19-2006 ~ 05:00pm
*soft laugh* Fifty huh at times I do feel that old and I was actually wondering if I do confuse people when I say that I am old thank you love for confirming my suspicions.

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Quote by RintashaBy the way, are you asking me to become your little onine brother?

If you want you know whatever makes you happy